My engagement 🥰💍

On August 26th, 2021, I got engaged to the best man ever! It was so sweet how it happened, and he definitely surprised me, so I thought I’d share the story. ♥️. In future posts, I want to talk about relationships….the wonderful, normal, healthy kind, as it took me over 40 years to realize what that looked like. And to realize that’s what I needed to expect for myself.

So, a few weeks or so leading up to 8/26, Dan kept saying we need to go rock hunting. Those of you who know me know that I love collecting rocks, crystals, gems, including going out in nature to look. I live in Wyoming, which is a great place to rock hunt because of the terrain here! Anyway, he became more and more insistent that we need to pick a day to go out and rock hunt. So we did, and I didn’t think much of it, we’d went several times before! Dan asked if I preferred a spot near Rock Springs or Casper and kind of intuitively I said Rock Springs.

The day of, Dan was having tummy issues and I felt bad and concerned, but again, didn’t think it was anything out of the ordinary. We ran a lil late because I kept remembering, “oh I need my sunblock, I need my sun hat” etc. He said “oh, we probably won’t be outside THAT long.” I still didn’t think anything of it 🤷🏼‍♀️.

We got there (it’s about an hour and 15 min drive) and started our day. I had offered to drive there, but said, “we should switch when we get close since you know the right spot to hunt.” 😅 He said he was ok to drive (he had hurt his arm a week or so before) 😞.

I was also looking for a winter vehicle so I can get to work in the snow, and Dan wanted to look at campers so we puttered around and looked, had lunch, etc. We also looked around Home Depot for things for the house. It was a fun day so far!

I believe it was around 1530, and we pulled into a small shopping plaza. There was a flowers/gifts shop, a sporting goods type store that was out of business but you couldn’t tell that at first, and a jewelry store. I was like, you going to see if they have ammo for sale? 🤔. But honestly we were parked really close to the jewelry store, and my heart started to pick up pace 😳. Dan said, “nope, this is our rock hunting spot.” And I began sweating 😅. I can’t even remember everything we said in the car right then cause I got so nervous and excited. I remember telling him, you realize I’d marry you in jeans with a fake ring, right? 😃. We told each other I love you, then I said, “let’s go inside before you change your mind.” 😂

The lady in the store greeted us and I couldn’t speak for a minute! She asked what shapes I liked and the very first ring she had me try on was it!! The ONE! It was honestly almost an exact replica of a ring I saw online several years back that I fell in love with, but at the time thought to myself, no way would a guy ever get me that! I did try on others of course, my hands shaking almost the whole time. I kept saying, “I can’t believe we’re here!” 🥲

It was the most special day ever, he really surprised me! And …after we left the jewelry store, Dan’s tummy felt instantly better! 🥰.

Reflections

Its been awhile since posting, I don’t know…I just, was at a loss for what to write about. A lot has changed since then. Great things are happening. I am engaged to the most amazing man in the world! I will tell the sweet story in my next post. I also work at a hotel now and while I took a big pay cut, the job is low stress and I already got a COL raise! I am happier and grateful. I am also struggling against anxiety and depression over the current state of the world. Today is 9/11/21, so I am wanting to share my thoughts on the 20th anniversary by sharing my Facebook post:

My reflections 20 years later won’t be like most others. Keep scrolling, this post isn’t up for debate. My daughter is 20, she was a tiny baby when it happened…many would consider 20 still such a short time, the blink of an eye. 9/12/01 I saw us all become New Yorkers, Americans, “One”, and outraged…it was to become the last time that would happen.

Now I see, in 20 short years, most of you buy into the government and media rhetoric of difference, division towards your own neighbors. How sad. Now I see we can’t disagree with each other. I see people getting called awful things for feeling one way politically or even questioning things like censorship. I see many of you sympathizing with criminals and crime, not police. I see many of you want to persecute those with differing ways of healing themselves, and saying if you do X or don’t do Y, you should not be allowed in the hospital if you get sick…I see the vandalism of tribute flags for the fallen, nothing is sacred anymore. I am so ashamed of humans but especially this country right now. We used to set the bar. How sad.

Just speaking for myself only, I see how my morals and my thoughts have caused me to get unfollowed and unfriended in mass (I consider losing at least 20 people in a year or 2, many of which I’d known since GRADE SCHOOL in mass.) 🤷🏼‍♀️. I see that even when I have great news to share (Facebook algorithm shares things like births, engagements, marriages to EVERYONE), not even a third of my list clicks the like button. I’ll see those types of announcements in my feed for someone that is never in my feed….

20 short years. 😢

Reality check: God is watching. And guess what, even if you are an atheist, there is right and wrong. And humanity and common sense. Let’s bring back our humanity; if something great happens to someone who votes for the other candidate, congratulate them! If something terrible happens, offer your condolences !! If someone on your friends list pops into your head, that’s not an accident, go to their page and check on them!!! In my humble opinion, if we don’t bring this brotherly love and humanity back, it’s gonna be a matter of life and death. ☠️

Choose 🕉 and ♥️ and ☮️ ,not ☠️

Extremes + gratitude

I don’t do absolutes, or extremes. I am a balance ☯️ person. Here is a current, real life example….it is not healthy for us to sit and be unproductive and collect assistance your whole life. No matter your political views, this can lead to being physically unhealthy and low self-esteem, mental health issues, etc. We are put on earth 🌎 to find our purpose and give our life meaning. (Even if it’s volunteer work). HOWEVER, I do not believe we are meant to work ourselves to death 60,70+ hours a week indefinitely. We need family time, friends, hobbies, a spiritual life, etc, as well. Balance 😁☯️!!!

Today, I explained my intent to give 2 weeks notice to the postmaster and he was nice, as always, but I got the “in my day” speech. Talked of how he can retire at 57 and that he and his wife raised their kids working 6 days/week, 12/hours a day. I thought, poor kids. And I was feeling a little guilt, even questioning my decision. That’s what us HSPs tend to do 😐. Just last night I had been feeling such gratitude at being offered a housekeeping position at a local hotel, at a significant pay cut. However! The supervisor agreed to the schedule I asked for! It will give me time to take classes, work from home, and take better care of my family. ♥️

Another carrier’s last day is Friday and I asked what job he was leaving for, thinking it was probably something amazing, maybe management, or huge pay raise, etc. The postmaster said it was to be a janitor at the local veterinary clinic, and in that moment I knew no one had the right to dictate my gratitude, decisions, or my happiness, but ME! YOU decide what your amazing is…don’t compare. I needed that reminder. I was grateful to that carrier in that moment. In a weird way, it was like he confirmed I was making the right decision. And he will never know that, but that’s ok. That’s life for those of us that choose to see life from a place of spirituality and gratitude… 🕉. We know there are no coincidences and that there are signs everywhere. You just have to be open to them. ☯️

It’s been a min 😔

I have been chomping at the bit to make another blog post …and unfortunately this one will be a bit short too. I’ve been with my new job at USPS for almost 2 months now and they are working me to death. 😔. The other guy that got hired with me quit the day after we got back to our office from training. Sooo, yeaaaa.

Anyway, I am falling into a sadness, maybe even a depression that I am trying to examine, learn from, etc. I can’t work a job that expects you to have no life. I’d rather live with less than always work. I’m not one of those people who are basically work robots. And the job is all physical, my body hurts from not getting rest and recovery days. When I started, I was told mostly part time, which is what I wanted. I was like, yay I can blog, paint 🎨, work on my spiritual side, etc. I also like taking care of my house and my man (I’m old school) 🤷🏼‍♀️. Now I don’t even get a week day off to run errands or spend time with my daughter. I have very little energy for what matters and I’m tired of just making it through every day.

Funny thing is , I really like this job. It’s perfect for an introvert… I work mostly alone and my logical side loves the mechanics of mail delivery. I am a bit torn to say the least. I am definitely gonna talk to the supervisor next week, as we have one carrier coming back from vacation. I am really leaning towards quitting if they won’t reduce me to no more than 5 days a week. I could probably go get a doctors note for that but I’m not sure it’s worth it …I have plans and hopes for my life. I’ll talk to you all soon, thank you for listening ♥️

My first blog post! 🎉

Thank you for clicking! I’m excited, but this one will be short, kind of an introduction. I’m Jennifer and I’m definitely an oddball, but I’d love to help in some way…even if it’s just to help you know you aren’t alone. I’m an HSP, INFJ, extremely introverted Aquarius ♒️ sun/Pisces ♓️ moon. But more on that later, I’ll have links for you if you wish to know more about this for yourself. I love crystals, cats, astrology, meditation 🕉, critical thinking, freedom, learning, art, reading, natural medicine and remedies, oracle and tarot cards, emojis; 😆 just to name a few, whew! 😃🌻.

Normally I hate talking about myself, so the first paragraph took me a bit, haha! Some might call me a hippie, and to an extent, I’d definitely agree. I’ve had a wide range of life experiences, jobs, and lived quite a few different places. I tell you all this so you’ll understand why my posts might seem random and all over the place at times. Something will come to me, and I’ll want to talk about it…this way I have an outlet besides my wonderful guy Dan, who might get tired sometimes of listening to me ramble! 😅

Here is a resource if you want to know more about being HSP: https://hsperson.com/

Here is a resource for a personality test: https://www.16personalities.com/

Here is one great astrology site, if you subscribe you get free weekly and monthly horoscopes delivered right to your inbox: https://astrostyle.com/

Talk to you soon, Jennifer 🕉☯️